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At 12:44 PM on Friday, January 27, 2006

I did not get the job that i was talking about.. sigh.. wonder whats wrong with me and my interview? Did i not rpotray myself properly? Did i screw things up by being too confident? I have no idea. the feedback i got: they found someone more experienced, and nothing was wrong with me.. so i have no idea how to improve myself and no idea what i am doing wrong. When i heard the news, i was quite sian and disappointed. i wonder at why would no one choose me over the others.. i wonder how many more interviews before i get my ideal job? how many rejections do i have to face before success? i even smsed my dear to warn him about my impending mood swing. but then i thought, why should i let this ruin my evening with dear? Maybe this wasnt the job for me, maybe this is not the thing for me. i want a job that after the interview, i feel that "yes, this is it! i WANT this job!"deep down in my gut. this previous one did not do that for me. all i was thinking of the location and salary to cover my dwindling savings account now. i believe someone up there likes me and will look after me... after chinese new year, its full steam for me.
Another thing i m glad that i did not get the job is that i got my first client for my events company! actually its just my aunt but she is paying! she wants to organise a get together cum high tea for her students. start with something small and work my way up! if i got the job, i could not concentrate on making this a success.. in that sense, i think god compensate me with something to keep me going.. but i need to get a job to survive. after chinese new year, its full steam for me.

this few days have been like a whirlwind, had been helping my mum to spruce up my house to her liking.. been travelling to different supermarkets to get the stuff needed to tide over the chinese new year period. went to giant, cold storage ntuc to get those deals only exclusive to those supermarkets at that time. later i have to run to pick up flowers, fishballs blah blah...
house to me, has been cleaned enuff, but my mum is into the nitty gritty details and is taking this chance to sterilise the house.. too tired to enjoy the atmosphere and festival.went to chinatown to look around and soak the atmosphere. there was alot of pple, even saw dear's bro's gf..i got my house pussy willow at $8! i heard fro my mum that someone bought theirs at $22! hahaha.. i win! so auntie hor? anyway, it looks real nice lo with the decorations hung by me!
cookies baking sessions are over, you should hear the sigh of relief my sister and i made when we saw the mixer kept by in the box..
Bedsheets have been changed to my new sheets that i bought at mustafa!
okok.. i got to go wipe the shoes cabinet.. like anyone would look that closely..sigh

Kisses,
fifteenmay

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